the Ghost I love the most

I'm a manipulative bitch at heart,egoistic at times,a pain in the ass,and Ms. Sarcastic.But when it comes to My Friends,I'd let half of these guards down.Friendship can never be Just about taking;it's also about Giving.

even when you wake up someday and realized you've Given Enough.cause the truth is;most of your Favourite Memories are the one you shared with them,and you wouldn't trade that with Anything in the world.

So if things started to change,dig deeper,and dig harder.Because the friend that you used to know your Inside Out is still in there,somewhere.


If Football is a Person and happens to be a Guy, I would run straight into 'His' arms and marry him.

My CR7 (it's Cristiano Ronaldo,to the Clueless), and Rooney scored a goal each during the weekend premier League match against Blackburn.Fantastic freekick was taken by Ronaldo (which went straight inside the goal,Duh),which put the Devils 7 points ahead of Liverpool and still in the running for the consecutive Premier League Cup.

And as I'm writing this post,my Devils were held at San Siro by Jose's Internazionale.Am i delighted,or pissed off?You tell me!



I would Like to dedicate this Entry to my dear friend,Lim Keon Zheng,as he turned 20 on the 24th of Feb 2009. Thanks for being a Great friend,my very own Ryan Seacrest and a Nagger.you know you love me!

And for the first time in my entire lifetime,I missed a crucial Manchester Utd Champions League Match,because it's not everyday your Best friend turns 20,right?


and let's face it; Football IS Life.but Friendship and camaraderie?These are what make Your Life worthwhile.

Zheng's 20th,Amaretto Restaurant,London.

[hippie-lovin-artist-sweetheart]


p/s:out of Nowhere,I dreamt about 'You' last night when I was half-dead battling with stomach cramp.So i guess,'you're' the Ghost I love the Most.



"Oh dear,cant you see?
It's them,it's not me
we're Not enemies;We just Disagree
Is this it?"

-Is this it,The Strokes-

Punchdrunk Lovesick Singalong

the thing about going on a tube, is that you get this weird peace and serenity for a moment in your life-minus all the screaming kids, irritating sound of smooches, people rushing in and out of the train. get on a tube and try listening to your ipod. put on your favourite song and sing along to it softly. it'll take you places you've never been before. it is one of my favourite times in the world.

Cell phones cant annoy you that much; there is absolutely no reception in the underground. all your problems seem so high above (since you're in the Underground). you're surrounded by wonderful strangers-they just dont give two f**k about your presence. they'll leave you with your thoughts, your anger, your misery, your happiness.

if society needs Prozac to keep them calm, I just need the tube.


"Let's take some time to talk this over
you're out of line and rarely sober
we cant depend on your excuses
cause in the end it's fucking useless
you can only lean on me for so long."

-Man Overboard, Blink 182-


some people just need to Grow Up. quit making empty promises and just move on. Life sucks; it'll get worst every time. But you will always have our back, if you stop acting like a charming delinquent.

The funny part of it all, I love you too much to be freakingly Mad at you.


What's in the bucket for the past few weeks? I finally had Ladies day out. Went out clubbing at Funky Buddha on V-day, although I was barely alive on that day. Being surrounded by the drunken Italians somehow made me realized that I am more patient than I give credit to myself. They were, Annoying. Full stop. Dalam club nak jerit jerit 'Malaysia!Malaysia!'. Yes, I am VERY proud of my country, but ehhh, Pleasseee la. Saya pening.

And there I was, thinking how the hell I spent 19 yrs of my Life drooling over Italian dudes. If those are what they can come out with in Reality, I'll stick to Italian footballers until the end of time. Gianluca Zambrotta, Daniele De Rossi, Andrea Pirlo, Del Piero, Luca Toni. As the matter of fact, the Whole Azzurris would be better. Hey, they might not be within my reach, they sure have style. And class. And did I mention they're just too Irresistible?


To my bestfriends/brothers/comrades/sidekick/gossip-pals. Of all the people I have Here by my side, you know you'll always be the one who keeps me Grounded all the time. Jangan la emo-emo.Drop all your egos and just go back to how things were before this. It felt weird laaaa, not having the 2 of you talking to each other like idiots behind my back. When can I hang out with the 'Saint' and the 'Sinner' just like old days? ;-)


ohhh....saya sangat in Lust dengan classmate 'Tea-Eye' saya. Not in that weird way, of course. He is just too adorable, and looks EXACTLY like Cliff Joseph Harris Jr, i.e. T.I. ok,ok, this obsession with T.I. has got to stop, because it's getting on everybody's nerves already.


The shocking sacking of Scolari (who used to be my Big Daddy). What ever happened to passion & Joga Bonito? Has the world of football is slowly conforming to the current world, where everything is business-like?

I am not a Chelsea fan, just to be clear. Face the fact; you're no longer 'special' after Jose left (you were never special to me anyway). But the departure of one manager after another? What Roman,do you expect a manager to bring miracle to your team in just 6 months? I think with all the recession and the turbulent in present economy made him a little cuckoo, dont you agree? Well Roman, you shouldnt have left your wife and let Mourinho walked away. That arrogant-yet-handsome Portuguese was the best thing that ever happened to Blues.



Last but not least, I would like to dedicate this entry to My Boys. Wonderful job against Fulham; marvelous goals from Berbatov, Rooney and the evergreen Paul Scholes. We're still on top of the table; 5 points lead over Liverpool, and still a clean sheet for Van der Sar. Awak ni terer la. Ihihi. Next stop; San Siro, 24th Feb, Champs League. (pick your team, bena. It's either the Devils or Internazionale)


P/s:thanks for Not being there when you knew I'm in need. Find me when boredom seeks your doorstep again k? Cause I guess that is what I do best.



[hippie-lovin-artist-sweetheart]

where are you?-16th Dec,2008

Nightmares left me with more tales to write, more words to say, and more skeletons to be thrown in the shady closet. I’d carve it all down, engraved them with cursive writings, pretending I’m Plath.

And I need You to tell me that these are all lies; truth is just somewhere around the corner.



The wrath that speaks silently. The eyes that wait for the warning sign. The mind that longs for peace. The heart that hides behind the blockade. The state of the mind that grasp nobody else but You.



I need You to tell me that these are all lies; truth is still waiting somewhere around the corner.



I need sleeping pills to get me through the night. I need the city lights to burn out quietly and leave me alone in my misery. I need music to soothe me up, keep me calm and bury all the horror at the back of my head. I need ciggs to get the chilling voices out of my system. I need muses to hold me grounded. I need tears to remind myself that I am capable of any kind of emotions. I need deeper reasons to outweigh all my decisions.

I need You to tell me that these are all lies; truth is just waiting, somewhere around the corner.



Darkness creeps in; slow and tormenting. Was it the voice of disappointment that I heard last night? Was the daunting whisper real, or was it just another trick? Was it all just a dream?



If it is, then where are You?

"a warning sign;

i missed the good part, then i realized

i started looking and the bubble burst

i started looking for excuses.

come on in; i've gotta tell you what a state i'm in

i've gotta tell you in my loudest tones

i started looking for a warning sign.

when the truth is;

I miss you.

yeah, the truth is

I miss you so.

A warning sign,

you came back to haunt me and I realized

that you were an island and I passed you by

you were an island to discover.

so i crawl back into your open arms.."

-Warning sign, Coldplay-

when your little wonderland vanishes and spies come out to play, what do you fall back into?

{You'll be Jack and I'll be Sally}

[hippie-lovin-artist-sweetheart]

St Valentine is Dead,so why Celebrate?

as i'm writing this post,it is already past midnight in malaysia [where my heart really is at the moment]. and yes,it is therefore,the V-day, famously known as the Valentines Day.

to the Lovers out there; Have Fun and cherish every moment you have together, cause who knows? the world might just end tomorrow. (Cynical,am i?)

to All the Single Ladies : when you have pack of armies like your Gals, why do you even Bother to look for Mr. Right?

I would trade Anything, anything, if i could be in KL right now, celebrating this V-day with my fellow comrades. yes, Chai, my beloved Posse. Or i could be in Melbourne, rejoicing our 'single-life' with my dear best-fren, Rye.

well,the least i could do is skyp-ing with my Munchikeen in Manchester.feels like im at home.

but what the hell.It's just another day,like every other Day. i could live with it.

received a text from one of the Chai today, and it cracked me up. Does sharing an ice cream could be considered as 'kissing'? cause i DEFINITELY agree to that. hey, your saliva and his intertwine!! so ye sayangku (i shall not type out her name due to privacy matter), you and him did 'french kiss' before your first real date!!

one of my Best Friend is finally getting his Valentines-Day-Special-come-true.I've been helping him plan this for a month; looking out places for dinner, getting him 8 roses for his girlfriend,booking a hotel.

maybe i should start my own Agency, like Hitch.

i'll post out some more soon,cause at this very moment,I think London Town is calling my name.

xoxo!

and Oh,due to the Recession, please, do not go and spend all your money on flowers,cards and chocs

. Love might keep you strong, but money keeps you HEalthy.

Happy Valentines Day sayangs!

[Hippie-Lovin-Artist-Sweetheart]

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes...all you need is 1."

-One tree Hill

when dusk meets dawn,boredom knocks on your door.

no gossip girl till march.i can live with that right?

t.i. will be going to jail on march.[heartbreaking,isnt it?]

my ipod is currently not available till weekend.how do i even live so far?

hatfield is a DEAD town.

i miss mummy.

this winter;its getting toooo bloody cold here.

putera sempoerna.my knight in shining armour.


[hippie-lovin-artist-sweetheart]

xoxo!