The Games that Play Us.

the awesomeness of the multi-awesome Monday night.The Black Eyed Peas (minus Fergie) came to spin at *drumrolls*....'The Forum'.yeah,the Forum at my uni. that evil place.

Forum is like Hatfield's little playground for the 18 and above.And Hatfield is a dead town.Why did Will.i.am,Apl.de.ap and Taboo chose to come and spin at the club,I have no idea.Like,seriously?If I'm a rockstar,I wouldnt want to spin in Hatfield!no offense though,I do love the Forum.

anyway,they came,they spinned,they Conquered.they played every genre of music;from RnB to Rock to DrumNbass to Rave to....you get the point.they were Massive.and we were dancing for 5 hours straight,without even sitting down.Dont ask me how,Red Bull just has that kind of effect on me.

Siti,Kunoor,Kangling,Shafiq,Nik and Fana;I had an awesomeeee time.maybe the awesomeness can stay a lot longer?;-)

After that night,I was practically drowning in my courseworks.Caffeine became my best friend yet again.I have to learn how to stop relying myself on it.Apparently, caffeine is a 'bitter, white chrystalline xanthine alkaloid that is a psychoactive stimulant drug'.wtf?!

Blame it on my courseworks and caffeine; now my sleeping time is screwed up.oh,who am i kindding anyway?it has always been a little off than the normal,sane people out there.

I had one too many of Red Bull on Friday night.Came home and my body started trembling.my hands were literally shaking inside.I felt like throwing up,my head started spinning,and I was talking a little faster than usual.Maybe because I was surrounded by two drunkards, the effect worsen.just a theory.you know I love the both of you.*wink wink*

'Always there where I need to be'.That's a complete bulls**t.

I'm not always there where I need to be.And I'm sorry.Like a chameleon, I am whatever I want to be.But that doesnt necessarily mean I've forgotten those i truly care about.Never.

so get this straight;I will never,Ever,run away from you,even if you ask me to.And I'm not staying just for the sake of Loyalty;I'm staying because I want to.there is no point in pushing me away,as I'll keep digging.

"And now we're all broken,

and now we're all alone,

and now we're all sad and small and not making much sense.

But you'll never get found if you dont get lost.

now we see through a glass darkly,but then we shall see face to face.

take a long hard look;

objects in mirror are closer than they appear."

-the Bitch Goddess Notebook,Martha O'Connor-

i watch the city sleeps every night.The road emptied itself,lamps flicker into darkness.Leaving me wide awake,watching every organisms shutting themselves down. Leaving me behind in the monumental silence.

Even if Life is a game and we play it by our own rules,sometimes,we couldnt help forgetting what exactly our rules are.Should we stop playing altogether?No.

Have faith,because the answers we've been looking for are hiding somewhere in the corner.and they will only come out and play till we set the next rules and move forward.and keep moving.

everything in Life is a game.there are some you can choose to play.But never choose the ones you know you'll end up losing.

"You left your home,

you're so far from everything you know

your big Dream is crushing down and out your door.

wake up and dream once more.

Come back;I'll help you stand."

-Come back when you can,Barcelona-

HappY 20th Atiqah Khairuddin;My Vice,My Chai.

Happy 20th Nadjlaa Zubri;My 'left-wing',My Chai.

Happy 20th Yang Ainoor;My Army,My Chai.

Happy 19th Taufiq Ibrahim;my 'Paramore',My baby Brother.

Reach for the stars;I'm always by your side.